2008年7月30日 星期三

Suicide

Today (29 July) we had 2 sessions by Pr 吳豪 on suicide, which is on the rise in recent years. He mentioned something like “Complete handbook for killing yourself" on the internet.

The focus was pastoral, but for me, suicide had been enemy to evangelism. And the cases were not recent at all ! More than two decades ago!

First, my classmate stopped coming to church when his sister killed herself. H-n S-ng had been a regular for many months. Even his mum came for a few weeks and stopped burning incense to her idols. The sister's suicide was dramatic: She overdosed herself with sleeping pills but nothing happened. Then she cut her wrists. Still she didn't die. Then she threw herself down 9 floors to her death.

Then there was R-nn-e, a bright straight A's student. He came to church once or twice. We talked very now and then on religion. Then one Monday, our principal announced his demise over the school PA system. He hung himself on Sunday. Someone told me they found a book titled "101 ways to commit suicide". We were teenagers, barely 16. His story was frontpage news.

Suicide tendencies... To those passionate about soul-saving, indeed it's both an opportunity and a threat.

2008年7月28日 星期一

神的僕人

3年前,有人送我一本聖經,在裏面寫了:「當神的僕人、傳道,為師或為父,常在禱告、讀經、默想的一念之間」。幾個月前,一位傳道人面對幾位當教授的信徒,受到一些無理的事情,又生氣又無奈。我提出對付這些似乎看學術比真理還重要的人,要兇一點,他想了一下,之後說了一句:「不可以,我是傳道,他們是信徒,傳道對信徒要仁慈」。

最近,看到傳道人對山輔的學生,甚至參與事奉的人,非常嚴厲,同時也看到内心的那份關愛。真的,當神的僕人、傳道,為師或為父,常常是在一念之間,必須靠聖靈的帶領,學會拿捏。今天早上開始兩天的傳道者靈修會,得藉這時間好好思考思考。。。